I hate you,
I hate you for getting in between me and nick,
I hate you for ruining my relationship and making me miserable for 4 months of my life
I hate you
I hate you for making me feel bad about myself
I hate you for ruining what I thought was my perfect life
I despise you
I despise how you came into my life and flipped it around,
I despise you for breaking me apart and making me lose myself
I can’t stand you
I can’t stand you for being able to come between my relationship
I can’t stand you because you keep coming up into my life
Leave me alone already
You already hurt me
And I’m defiantly not letting you do that again.
Stop coming into my life
Stop pretending like you have my best interest when you don’t
Stop making me doubt someone I love just because you think you can come in again
You make me sick knowing there are girls like you out there,
I now know how lonely and sad your life is cuz you have nothing better to do and can’t just leave my life alone
But you aren’t going to come into my life again so stop
Leave me alone for good cuz there is nothing you can say or do to get to me again
I keep telling myself that little things like new clothes, new friend, good grades, family, and a boyfriend will make me happy but does all that really make me happy or just make me seem happy? I guess I have been happy but I don’t know if I am truly happy the way I am.. I keep wanting something more to come and everyday it doesn’t I feel like i get let down but i still have no clue what that thing is. If anyone saw how my life is not they would think i have an amazing life full of amazing people and things not a lot of people have and in theory that is suppose to make me happy but I feel like i want more. My boyfriend makes me incredibly happy and I am so lucky to have him, but sometimes I get all crazy on him and think that he should just find a normal girlfriend. Yes we are not all perfect but sometimes we bring out the worst in each other especially when we fight, but I mean i have a boyfriend that loves me for me so why am i complaining… So i don’t totally know where I’m going with this blog post because I guess this is me typing what I think because I have nothing to do with my life. But I don’t feel like I’m done venting… My life is good an all but sometimes I just feel empty and I have no clue what to do with my life anymore.. I feel like I’m going no where so far and all my goals have just disappeared because I have no clue what I wanna do in 5 years from now and where I wanna go… And I am a junior and I feel like I should know now….
So we might now have always has good times and we might have fought and has out bad times we always end up staying together. Ya I might have talked about an ex or liking a younger guy but I love nick more than anything :) he is the most amazing guy ever and I couldn’t ask for a better semi bf. He is my everything and i don’t know what I would do without him, I can’t wait to see him soon :) he makes me beyond happy and even though not alot of people like me with him I still love him no matter what other people say. he is the most important person in my life and i love him more than anything
I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND NICK!!!! <3
My favorite movie :) I could watch it over and over again and never get tired of it :)
Fights suck and the stupid thing people say during a fight always makes it worse. I think i just lost the most important person in the world beside my family today and it sucks dick. I feel like crying my eyes out right now but i know it wouldn’t help just make it worse. When you fight when your mad it just makes it worse and i probably would have him still be talking to me if i cooled down and stopped texting him when i was mad, but the dumb girl i am i didn’t. Now I’m stuck wishing i didn’t say half the things i did. I hate fighting no matter what kind physical and yelling it makes my heart sink and makes me cry =/
Why is being in a relationship ideal in life? Why are you looked funny when you are fine being not married or ever having kids? Who decided to make the things we want something we need to look normal in society? I get water food and air are needed but is everything else just something we want? Every herd the saying “you want it you don’t need it”. Well what do we really need? I wish things were simpler when all you needed was food air and shelter to survive. Now people ‘need’ a spouse, kids, technology and all the little things we use today. Was inventing all these things like electricity, cellphones, internet really something our world needed or was it just something we wanted to fill our want for more than necessary. Don’t get me wrong i love my ipod, cell phone and laptop as much as the next person but i think it is just not necessary to living, and i think without it our economy would be better more and more people would be happy. I mean whats so wrong with living in a world with no technology.. Nothing at all life would be more natural without all this stupid stuff online.
Why has showing your wealth changed, over years it has become progessivly different. It use to be wearing purple clothes, being fat and owning a small mini house and horse ment you were rich. But now wearing Michael kors, coach glasses owing escalades and mansions means you are got money. Back then life was so simple why isn’t it like that now. Do we really need technology and ya kind of ironic of me using a laptop to type this but do we really need iPods, laptops, cell phones and televisions. Wouldn’t life be simpler without all of it, less stress,more actual time with people and less ways people can get harmed. If people put down their cell phones iPods and laptops we would all probably be closer and happier with the simple things of life instead of always wanting more.